When God’s Timing Feels Like a Letdown

When God’s Timing Feels Like a Letdown

I’ve spent a lot of my life waiting. Not just waiting in line or for emails to come through or opportunities to show up but waiting on God. Waiting for peace in my mind. Waiting for emotional stability. Waiting for something to finally stick. I waited for doors to open, for finances to get easier, for confirmation that I was on the right path. But sometimes, it felt like silence was all I got.

And truthfully, I'm still waiting. Still wondering: Am I doing what I’m supposed to be doing? Is this truly what You had in mind, Lord? Or am I still running on self-will, chasing something that looks like purpose but was never Your plan?

The one prayer I’ve prayed the most over the years hasn’t been for wealth or fame, it’s been simple and personal: Make me the woman You had in mind when You created me.

Not a richer version of me. Not a shinier, more impressive, or polished version. Just... whole. Peaceful. Transformed.

But here’s the hard truth: That transformation hasn’t come in the way I thought it would, or at the pace I expected.

There were seasons when I genuinely wondered: Did God forget me? Or worse, was I being punished for something I couldn’t even name? I'd look around at other women who were more gifted, more successful, and more put together and ask myself why them and not me.

I started judging my insides by everyone else’s outsides. And in that quiet comparison, my worth would shrink and my faith would flicker. I’d retreat and isolate. I’d stop going to church and pull away from other believers. The emotional toll of the wait would get too high, and I’d shut down. It didn’t feel like rebellion, it felt like exhaustion. Like maybe I just wasn’t enough for God to take notice of anymore. Oh wait, I still do that!

But here’s what I know now:

God hasn’t been punishing me; He’s being patient with me. Patient enough to let me stop chasing what I think I need and start listening for what He wants me to pursue. He has been protecting, preparing, and positioning me!

Some days feel like old habits. I used to pray hard for financial freedom, heck, I vision-boarded it, planned for it, sacrificed for it. I worked and studied and dug in, convinced that if I could just arrive at that financial peak, I’d finally feel safe and proud and at peace.

But now? I thank God I didn’t get it when I asked for it. If He had answered that prayer then, I would’ve squandered it. I hadn’t healed any at all. My coping skills were old and broken. My outsides looked like progress, but my insides were a hot mess. Too much money at that time would’ve destroyed me more than my alcoholism ever did. I hadn’t yet fallen on my face, learned new tools, or discovered what true provision really looks like.

What I have now isn’t millions by any stretch, but I have peace about it and that’s growth.  Peace that makes no sense when I look at my bills or compare my life to someone else’s highlight reel. The numbers don’t add up, but somehow, I’m held. I’m not drowning. And that quiet security, that trust in the unseen? That’s worth more than any balance in the bank.

God kept me from impulsive decisions that would’ve wrecked the foundation I was trying to build. He didn’t give me what I wanted, but He certainly gave me what I needed.

And the older I get, the more I realize: I thought I was being left behind. Turns out, I was being set apart.

So, if you’re in that waiting space right now, I want to speak directly to your heart.

Just because it hasn’t happened yet doesn’t mean God isn’t working.

He’s moving in ways you can’t see. He’s blocking doors that would break you. He’s redirecting you toward paths you never even knew existed. He’s placing people in your life who will shape your next chapter. He’s not ignoring you. He’s insulating you!

If it feels like God’s timing is letting you down, you’re not alone. I’ve been there. I still land there sometimes. But I return to this truth again and again:

He didn’t bring me through all I’ve survived just to let me destroy it again and He loves you too much to rush you. He loves you too much to give you something you’re not ready to carry. Believe me! And He’s definitely too wise to be early.

So don’t give up in the waiting and don’t run from discomfort. For heaven’s sake, don’t let comparison steal your peace either.

You may not see it yet, but your breakthrough is on the other side of this process.

His timing isn’t a letdown. It’s a setup. He’s preparing you for something far greater than the thing you thought you needed right now.

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Until next time… 💛

Andrea